When a Project Isn’t Mine (Yet)… But It’s All I Can Think About.

I’ve been asked to create some test pieces for a new project. which I can't reveal yet, and I’m so excited I can’t stop thinking about it. To the point where I’ve started asking myself: is this just pure excitement, or am I spiraling into obsession? Is this just part of my ADHD? Who knows—but here we are.

For the past week, I’ve been testing, researching, and brainstorming around the clock, trying to figure out how to make this project the best it can possibly be. It’s not officially mine, but I already feel deeply connected to it. Devoted, even.

What I can share is that it involves scientific illustration, colored pencil work, and nature—all the things I’m confident in and love creating. That part feels like home.

But the project also includes new territory: creating backgrounds using different techniques. That’s the part I’ve been diving into headfirst. I don’t have much formal experience there, but I’m painting in watercolor like crazy, experimenting in Photoshop, and studying how to integrate my traditional art with new layers of digital magic.

And I can’t help but feel lucky. Truly lucky. Because the people behind the project have been supportive, generous, and encouraging. They’ve shared resources, sent samples, and offered guidance. Even if I don’t end up getting the job, just being considered and given the space to explore feels like a gift.

I do understand the risks on their side. Time is critical, and I may not be the most experienced in this type of composition. But I’m learning fast. And how often do we get the chance to expand our skill set with creative freedom and support?

This project has completely taken over my mind. Day and night. I get frustrated when things don’t work but then I regroup, rethink, and test again. I’m dreaming about it. I’ve talked to my husband about it endlessly. I sneak every free minute to sit at my desk and tinker. The project isn’t even officially mine… and yet it already feels like a chapter in my artistic journey I’ll always remember.

Honestly? I feel like Neo in The matrix when they upload new skills into him. “I know kung fu.” Except mine is: “I know digital blending!”

Have I completely lost my mind? Or is this just what deep creative joy looks like? Maybe it’s both. But I needed to write this down to get it out of my system a bit because my family is probably tired of hearing about it. Ha!

If it works out, I’ll definitely share more when I can. And if it doesn’t, I’ll still be thankful. It reminds me of when Wingspan first landed in my life. Same buzz, same hunger to grow, same joy of discovery. I want to remember this moment, no matter where it leads.

Thanks for reading. And if you’ve ever felt this kind of fire for something new, tell me I’m not the only one?

Remember: Everything is figurable.